Jan 16 Mon. Inclined to be dull sun shine but faintly. Audrea went to school. suppose she will get her feet wet it is thawing so rapidly. An atmosphere of gloom surrounds the place – as usual. Amozell sends a note written in her usual crazy style. Can make nothing of it. Ernest or his doings are nothing to me. I wish I’d never seen her or any of them. What matter if the body is fed when the soul is starved + it has been years since mine has been provided for. These people don’t seem to have any. I see in my excitement I have written Monday’s doings under Sunday’s head. so now I will have to write Sundays.
Sunday was fine but very cold. Did not get down stairs untill half past two. Had cup of tea read the paper. Not the Bible. there does not seem to be any chance here for that only when I am alone. Tried to teach Audrea something but the influence on the other side is too much for one. “A house divided against itself cannot stand” I that Audrea might repay me for all I had gone thro’ but that was only another dream. there’s nothing left for me in this world. Mr. Baldwin came in while we were eating dinner stayed about an hour. Looks badly. should not wonder if he breaks down. Children in nine cases out of ten are an unprofitable investment. You can’t gather grapes from thorns nor figs from thistles. As ye sow so must ye reap and an uncontrolled child will be a disgrace to its parents as sure as the sun rises in the east + sets in the west
Notes + Explanations:
Wow. This was an amazing entry. Lots to cover. Ready?
1. There is apparently great concern over the wetness of feet. I find this amusing.
2. Her strong feelings about Ernest are in line with her sentiments towards Clarence. Ernest, however, is her own cousin. His name is Joshua Ernest Morris, and he was married to Amozelle Lester, Clarence’s sister. In fact, I’m thinking that their relationship could have been how Edith and Clarence met. Annie could be against the whole Lester clan, who she thinks her cousin was foolish enough to marry into, furthered by the situation (whatever it may be at this point) with her own daughter and the suspicious post-birth marriage.
3. Her feelings related to lack of religion in the household are a source of great despair for her, clearly. I’m very curious what she means about Audrey needing to repay her for all she had gone through. Perhaps the premature death of her husband is the source of their financial downfall?
4. Now, about Mr. Baldwin breaking down because of his wicked child. I suspect that there is a daughter who is causing them some headaches. Daughters “disgracing” the parents seems to be a common thread.
5. There are so many fantastic quotes in this entry, I don’t even know where to start. The house divided quote is from Lincoln’s famous speech. The grapes and figs comment is a reference to Matthew 7:16 of the Bible. The reaping and sowing is Galatians 6:7. And I do believe the rest are the sweet sweet words of Annie herself.
Tomorrow, there will be no post, as she has accidentally written Monday’s before Sunday’s “in her excitement”. Instead, I’ll try to update some of the people pages with what info I can find.
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